letting go

There are things in my life that I have become really attached to that may be preventing me from growing as a person. The struggle I've been dealing with is that I don't know how to move on without letting go of those attachments. I'm sure there is a way and that time will help but in the interim it is a constant tug-of-war in my heart. Hopefully, I can pick apart the things I want to keep with me as I grow and leave behind the memories that are impeding me. I wonder if we ever “get over” things, though. I am starting to understand that every experience grafts itself in our minds and that we never really “move on.” I guess the real feat is to be able to live your life in a happy and productive way while learning from those experiences. At least I hope so!

favors

Another thing I've been thinking about....when someone else is going out of their way to do you a favor, I think it is only fair that you are respectful of their time and considerate of their feelings. Being overly demanding of people who are helping you is a sure-fire way to make them less likely to help you out again in the future.

Focus on What You Have

The life lesson I am currently working on is to focus on and appreciate what you have instead of what you don't have. Why is this such a struggle for me? I have so many wonderful things going on in my life but I am still so sad about the things I don't have anymore. I've lost so much in the last year that it has been easy to wallow in self-pity and regret. It is almost comforting. If anyone has any suggestions, let me know. I am stuck here, especially with Christmas approaching, evaluating and re-evaluating to the point of exhaustion. I don't think it helps that my brain works about 20 times faster than most peoples. Maybe that's why I have a hard time focusing on so many things...because I'm too hyper-focused on other things.

My own intervention strategy for myself is to take 10 minutes per day to think about all of the great things going on in my life. I hope it helps!